Shadow

Shadow came to us shortly after we returned home from vacation in the fall 2013. Her future owners had been picked out, but given her personality, Liz, the trainer, felt she needed to live in a home, away from Liz, prior to going to her permanent residence. She is a doodle, a mix between an Aussie and a poodle. White and brown, with a nubbin of a tail, one blue eye and one brown eye, 25 pounds, and about 14 months old when we got her. She spent about five weeks with us. The first part of her life was spent at a puppy mill. She had already had some pups, the evidence was her swollen teats.

Shadow.

The day before we got her she got fixed, so she was a bit groggy and likely sore the first several days. She was incredibly cautious and timid at first. Several days passed before she decided to eat food rather than go through the motions of burying it. In my attempts at enticing her to eat and find a treat she would work for, I discovered she did not care for peanut butter, but was a huge fan of cheese, even better, cheese whiz! It took over a week for Shadow to work for me. I think she was feeling me out and once she decided I was ok, she would do anything I asked. She was hesitant to sit for a couple weeks. I think this was due to discomfort from her surgery.

Shadow resting her first day with us

The first night she spent in her crate quiet as a mouse. The second night she serenaded us from her crate with a rather large variety of howls, barks, whines, and yips at varying degrees of loudness. It was honestly quite entertaining and we appreciated her variety. She settled down eventually.  In the morning, Peter discovered that she had managed to open the crate door because she was walking around the house. Thinking back, she probably escaped her crate at the time she quieted down.

Shadow didn’t get into much around the house and was most content to be close to me. So we left her out of her crate at night and she was happy to sleep on a dog bed next to our bed.  This ended the serenading. It did not take long for Shadow to become, well, my shadow. She followed me around the house, would howl and cry when I stepped outside to simply get the mail. I could see why Liz wanted Shadow to spend time away from her prior spending a week in training with the new owners. She needed Shadow to bond with someone other than her so the training would be possible.

Shadow definitely bonded to me. She would serenade Peter if I left the house without her. She also grew anxious when I left her. We discovered this one night when I spent the evening with some friends. Peter was still at home. Shadow serenaded Peter for a spell, then quieted down when she found our clothes basket and proceeded to pull out clothes and chew holes in some of them.  Chewing is definitely one of her anxiety actions. One day I put a leash on her so I could ensure she stayed on her “go place.” I gave her a rawhide and she laid down and started chewing on the raw hide, at least that is what I thought. Turns out she chewed through the leash. This little dog is a strong chewer.

One neat thing about our time with Shadow was seeing her personality come out little by little. Each week some additional aspect of her personality would surface.  One of the first things I remember her doing was seeing her reflection in mirrors, front of the dishwasher, in a glass door and giving a deep growl. She is very in tune to noises around the house. Often she would lift her head and cock her ears to a noise.  She didn’t care for loud kitchen appliances – immersion blender, food processor. When I would use them, I’d find her sitting in our bedroom, as far away from the kitchen as she could get.

It took a couple weeks to get Shadow to get up into the car on her own.  This was important because we traveled to training class each week and she would go additional places with me.  I didn’t want to have to pick her up and place her in the car. I wanted her to be willing to get in the car on her own. At first she just froze unsure of what to do. I found I could coax her into the car if I was in the backseat encouraging her to enter. She would climb up one foot at a time. The last week we had her, Shadow found her jumping ability and she jumped into vehicles, she even jumped in the trunk of the car at one point.

Just wanted to make sure you weren’t planning on leaving me.

Pablo and Shadow never played. They came close a couple times, but they never quite figured it out. They lived together nicely, sharing sun and chewing raw hides together.

Two sun seekers.
Snack time, nom nom.

Shadow did decide to fetch her last week with us. She would bound after a thrown toy. It was a joy to see her acting playful.

Shadow is not without talent. Liz taught her to smile (lift her upper lip and show her teeth). She would smile in greeting when we returned home and she would smile on command as well. She has quick little steps and when she was crated this became quite obvious. Like a tap dancer! I did see the poodle prance too, she would grab the food bowl and prance into the living room with it.

Shadow is all smiles.
Shadow is all smiles.

During walks in the neighborhood, Shadow would gravitate toward any child we passed. She loves children and would greet them all, wagging her little nubbin tail. Shadow is truly a people dog. I took her to a dog park several times and she would greet the people and pay no attention to the dogs.

She enjoys a good run. She took to running figure eights in the yard. Just a couple of them and then want to be back in the company of people. Pablo, Shadow and I enjoyed some hiking in Berea one beautiful fall day. It was nice to see Shadow explore on her own some.

Shadow got to take a road trip to PA with us for Thanksgiving. She traveled well and basically slept the entire time. Shadow got to enjoy the snow, a bon fire, an active house, and what I believe was her favorite thing, to make friends with my mom. Shadow enjoyed snuggling with my mom during our time in PA.

Just let me know when we are there, ok?
Keeping her feet dry on the cardboard while watching the fire.

A big change for Shadow came after Thanksgiving. She would meet her new family! She is to provide comfort to a young girl named Carli. I was so thrilled to meet this family and get a sense of what Shadow’s job would entail.  It is simply amazing, the more I learned about this family and Shadow’s role in it, the more perfect I realized Shadow is for her job. Her personality, love of children, her desire to be close to people, and receive pets and snuggles will suit her well in her new home.

Shadow getting acquainted with Carli.
Shadow and Carli.

Shadow’s gentle spirit is something I will always remember. I enjoyed getting to know her and watch her personality bloom over the weeks she spent with us. It was such a blessing to have Shadow as a charge for a short time, knowing she’s got something bigger and better planned for her, then meet her family and hear how Shadow’s has impacted their lives – it just doesn’t get any better than that!

Gentle Shadow.

 

 

Sophie

My first charge, a scrawny, 8 pound, 10 week old, black, double doodle puppy, was literally plopped in my lap on July 9, 2013. This little gal would be my first experience at puppy raising for Pawsibilities Unleashed. She would eventually become a service dog for someone who needed her talents. I sat there with this no-named, squirmy pup in my lap not really sure what to think of her. If you are wondering what I am doing with this pup, you might want to read Combining Passions.

We named her Sophie and she proved to be smart, energetic, dramatic, and endlessly entertaining and nothing phases her. Sophie has beady eyes, like you would see on a teddy bear. Her tail is long and slender and eagerly wags when she works on commands. She has long legs like a poodle and her howl, whine and bark are all overly high-pitched and dramatic. Sophie was with us about three months. When she left us, she weighed about 20 pounds and was taller and longer than Pablo.

One of the first photos of Sophie

Puppies are cute right? And it is a good thing, because they are a lot of work. Pablo came to me basically house trained and healthy at about 3-4 months old. With Sophie, I got many new experiences – house training, an ear infection and a bout of worms. All learning experiences that will help with the next puppy in this house.

With Sophie, I realized you have to take a young puppy outside every hour, if not more often, and make a huge deal when they go to the bathroom outside. Eventually the light bulb goes off and the bladder grows up and can handle several hours inside at a time. Hallelujah!

Her ear infection become obvious when she would scoot the side of her head on the carpet and whine. She never scratched her ears excessively with her paws, but she tried to use the carpet for relief. Sophie’s ears are pretty hairy and a trick I learned was to twirled a Q-tip in her ear several times to pull the inner ear hair out to prevent dirt from gathering and infections from setting in.

Sophie seemed so skinny. She just wasn’t gaining much weight and always ferociously eating her food for the first month we had her. About week four or five with us she started throwing up on occasion. With maybe the third episode, I saw spaghetti-like items in her vomit – worms. She has not been treated for worms since we got her and apparently puppies are very susceptible to roundworms. I was so thankful to get those things taken care of, terminate the vomiting, and get some weight on that dog.

I did learn a lot about puppies with Sophie, and with the work came endless entertainment. She is quite curious and one afternoon I found her in the dishwasher cleaning dishes. I couldn’t help but laugh even if it was a behavior I’d rather her not repeat.

Just helping with the dishes.

Pablo loved playing with her and the two of them romped around the house wrestling and chasing, growling and barking. A result of all this playing and biting was finding baby teeth throughout the house. I think I found the majority of the lost baby teeth from this girl.

 

Sophie has a fabulous nose. I would tether her to a door and she would lay down patiently waiting for me to hide her kibble around the house, in corners, beside furniture posts, under the corner of rugs, and on a bottom shelf. When I let her go she was off and it would not take her long to find all of her kibble. Pablo usually found a few morsels too. I put some kibble in a big box and she jumped right in. Like I said, nothing phases this dog.

See the long tail?
Sophie in a box.

One day on a walk with Sophie and Pablo, I dropped a poop bag on the sidewalk while picking up some additional business. To my surprise, Sophie picked up the poop bag and proudly with the poodle prance carried the bag back to the house. From that day on her job on walks was to carry her poop bag. She took on that task proudly and with enthusiasm.

 

In training class, we learned basic commands, sit, down, stand, wait, heel, among other things. I also taught her some commands just for fun. She could right shake and left shake.

Right shake.

Sophie is a poodle and her coat needs grooming. I recall the first time I took her for a puppy grooming and she came back with a bow in her hair!

So pretty.

I was called up north to work for several days in Ohio shortly after Sophie came to live with us. So she learned how to travel and travel well. She would chill in her crate and sleep during the drive. During our stay in a hotel I discovered the long hallways in hotels are great for practicing heeling. She also accompanied my friend, Stephanie, and I on a road trip to PA, MD, and VA. True to her curious, independent nature, she would explore and enjoy every stop and experience along the way. Sophie’s travel highlights included spotting a lion statue at a job site (she barked at the lion), meeting numerous strangers, family, friends, children, dogs, cats and horses, getting a ride in a wagon, and dipping her paws in the Potomac River.

Let me know when we get there.
New dog friend in VA.
New child friend in VA.
Just going for a ride.

I have to be honest and admit it took months before Sophie made her way into my heart. I think it was partly the Lord shielding my heart, partly the focus and work involved with a puppy, and partly that she was nothing like I expected. I laugh now when I think about telling Peter my guess was that the dog we would get would be white and brown with no black. Oh how often our expectations are way off base! But I remember exactly when I looked at Sophie and thought, this is a dog I am proud of, and my heart smiled. It was a training class in September and Sophie was rock solid. She was focused, attentive, spot on with all the exercises. It was as if she had left the puppy at home that night and boy, was I ever proud of the young dog she had become.

Just enjoying the view.

We had a vacation planned in October and could not take Sophie. So we made arrangements for her to stay at the trainer’s farm. I would be given a second dog after our return from vacation, but was fortunate enough to make arrangements to see Sophie again. She came to training class to meet us. Sophie had filled out some, found a wild side of herself (I imagine farm life would do that to any dog), but was excited to see us and still knew all her commands. Sophie was matched with a family and tasked with rounding up and keeping tabs on a child who has a tendency to bolt. I have no doubt she is providing a priceless service to this family. Thank you Sophie for the introduction into the world of puppy raising.

Farm dog Sophie.
Working at training class.

 

 

Combining Passions

For the past year I had been praying and brain storming about finding a ministry that encompassed my passions.  I had been observing people in ministry, and when you see a person that throws their whole heart and energy into their particular ministry, there is no doubt they were made for what they are doing. I wanted to have that passion and excitement for something.  After thinking about it, I wanted to find a ministry that combined my love of animals, bent toward service, and ultimately helped people.

I recalled a friend of mine who fostered and trained a service dog several years ago. I wanted to run with this idea. I chatted with my friend about her experience, what she liked, disliked, and what challenges she encountered. I could tell in my heart this was something I should pursue. A Google search lead me to Pawsibilities Unleashed, an organization in Frankfort, KY, that among other things, trains service dogs.  One of the great things about this organization is that they will train any breed of dog that passes a temperament test and has characteristics needed for a service dog. Dogs come to this organization by all sorts of paths.

After an interview with the organization and blessing from Peter, I made arrangements to take on a dog in July 2013. I wasn’t sure what all this entailed, only that I was to attend a training class once a week with the dog I was charged with. I had no idea if I would like this, if I could handle it, what all was involved, or whether this was the ministry I had been praying for, but I did know I was excited for this new adventure.

Aussie Animals

We had the opportunity to travel to Australia in February to visit Barry. What a trip and too much to tell in one post, so I wanted to start with the animals. A photo and a little about each animal, more to help me remember what all we saw than anything. Enjoy.

Kangaroo sighting with joey

It was such a treat to see a wild kangaroo. Then to see the joey poke his head out from the pouch definitely put this experience over the top! I spotted this kangaroo and joey on the way down the mountain from O’Reilly’s.

Koala

A rare moment of movement! Koalas are marsupials and eat eucalypt leaves. Eucalypt leaves are low in protein, high in indigestible substances and contain compounds that are toxic to most species. A zoo worker said it is similar in nutrients to eating cardboard. This is why koalas are usually either eating or sleeping. We got to pet koalas and the fur is thick and reminds me of wool.

Wombat

Wombats are marsupials that reminds me a bit of a groundhog.  They dig burrows and usually move slowly.  Although when threatened, the wombat can run up to 25 mph for up to 90 secs. So be mindful of these guys.

Cassowary

Talk about a rocking head piece. The cassowary is a flightless bird that reminds me of an ostrich, but with a horn-like casques on its head. It eats fruit and one theory of the casques is protection from falling fruit.

Wild cockatoo

I have only ever seen cockatoos at an aviary or in a cage, but these two are wild. Cockatoos are easily recognized by their showy crests (head feathers) and curved bills. And boy are they loud squawkers!

Laughing Kookaburra

You know this bird call when you hear it. Imagine an obnoxiously loud laugh and you’ve got the laughing kookaburra.

Looks like an owl, but it's not

This is a tawny frogmouth, a member of the nightjar family. The wide beak helps derive its name. A nocturnal bird that rests during the day in trees, keeping still and using camouflage to avoid detection.

Lorikeet

We saw several lorikeets in the wild. I use the term “wild” loosely. They know people have food. That is why this one landed on my hand. I just held my hand out like I had seed in it and he flew down to check things out.

Brush Turkey or Scrub Turkey

This guy is not related to the american turkey. We saw numerous brush turkey in the rainforest at O’Reilly’s of all places.

Noisy Miner

On our first sighting, we thought this was a pretty neat looking bird, and then we saw them everywhere and they quickly became unimpressive. The noisy miner is a common and aggressive bird.

Lyre Bird

This is not the best picture, but it is a lyre bird. We spotted him in the Blue Mountains. It reminded me of a road runner. The lyre bird has an amazing capacity to mimic other bird calls. I wonder how the lyre bird would compare with the mocking bird on various bird calls?

Crested Pigeon

I may be able to get over my distain for pigeons if we had the crested pigeon in the USA. The feather spike headdress is a fun look.

Dingo

Most notable to me about Australia’s free-roaming wild dog is that they look very much like my brother’s dog, Sydney. Is she part dingo? You decide.

Sydney
Echidna

Porcupine or anteater? A bit of both, this little guy, the echidna, is known as a spiny anteater and is an egg laying mammal.

Bilby

With transparent ears, a long tail, long snout and sharp claws, the bilby is a most unusual nocturnal animal. Bilbies are great at burrowing, making elaborate systems of tunnels in the wild.

Creepy Australian Spider

I have no idea what kind of spider this is, but we saw TONS of them at the Sydney Harbour National Park. The idea of running into a spider’s web makes my heart race, so I kept my eyes peeled for these guys once we saw several. I attempted to identify him using the trusty Google, but quickly had my fill of looking at spiders and am comfortable simply calling him the creepy australian spider we saw too many of!

Goanna Lizard

This goanna was spotted at a park near Noosa. He was just wandering around. Take a look at the long tongue!

Oh the joys of seeing amazing creatures. God sure was imaginative when he created the creatures of this earth.

 

Man’s Best Friend

I should start this little story by telling you that Pablo is my training partner. He walks, runs and hikes with me when I have set fitness goals for myself. We often set out at a location which allows him to run off leash. He explores while I walk, hike or run and he comes by to “check in” every so often.

So today we were out training. Mid-run I threw my sweatshirt over a fence to pick up on the way back of an out-and-back route. Pablo “checked in” around mile 1 of a 3.5 mile run. I kept plugging along and realized it had been a while since Pablo had “checked in.”  I figured I would spot him at some point on my way back.

I made it 1.75 miles out and turned around. No sign of Pablo. Got back to the point he last “checked in.” Still no Pablo. I kept my eyes peeled for the mischievous charge of mine. I turn a bend and there he was patiently sitting on the trial next to the spot I had thrown my sweatshirt on the fence around 0.75 miles. When he realized the jogger coming toward him was me, you would have thought he hadn’t seen me in a week. What excitement and joy Pablo displayed with his jumping and running! That just warms my heart and demonstrates that dogs are a companion for life, man’s best friend, and a guard of their owner’s sweatshirt!

Recreation of Pablo waiting for his master

Grand Canyon Trip Bucket List Slide Show

This is a follow-up to the Valleys and Mountains post. After hiking into the Grand Canyon with 11 coworkers, we sat in the shade and shared some items on our bucket lists. After returning home a slide show was made with photos from the trip and our bucket list items. I can’t seem to watch this without smiling like a fool and tearing up. I hope you enjoy it a fraction as much as I did. Grand Canyon Bucket List Slide Show.

Scalloped Potatoes and Onions

I recently found, what in my opinion, is a great scalloped potato recipe on AllRecipes.com. Some of you expressed interest in it, so I thought I would post it with my modifications. Thank you Peter for the awesome picture!

5 large potatoes sliced thin or however many potatoes it takes to fill my 2 1/2 qt circular casserole dish (precise I know)
3/4 c. chopped onion (if it is a small onion I use the whole thing, if it is large I will use half)
At least one clove of garlic (I tend to use more)
3 Tbs. margarine/butter (your choice)
1/4 c. all purpose flour
1 3/4 c. chicken broth
2 Tbs. mayonnaise/yogurt/sour cream (your choice)
3/4 tsp. salt and 1/8 tsp. pepper
Possible add-ins: parsley, chives, paprika, cheese (I use cheese and smoked paprika)

1) Saute onions & garlic in butter
2) Add flour, salt and pepper, stir until smooth
3) Add broth, mayonnaise, cook until bubbly and thick (about 2 minutes)
4) Grease casserole dish, layer potatoes and sauce, repeat until dish is full.
5) Sprinkle top with cheese, paprika, parsley, or whatever you desire.
6) Baked covered at 350 degrees for 1 hr or until potatoes are tender. I uncover for last 15 minutes or so to brown the cheese on top. Serves 6.

Valleys and Mountains

Donan Engineering:

I first have to tell you a little about the amazing company I work for, Donan Engineering. I took part in a Get Fit program earlier this year offered by my employer. The program worked like this:

(1) set a goal – mine was to hike, run, walk a total of 400 miles in six months

(2) use the Nike+ and iPod (both provided by Donan) to track the mileage – easier said than done at times, technology is so challenging!

(3) meet set goal in six months – made it!

The reward was keeping the equipment and getting your name thrown in a pot for a chance to be one of eight spots on a trip to hike into the Grand Canyon with the boss and a coworker, who would lead the trip. Yes, I am totally serious here. A rewards trip for getting fit!

When it was all said and done, I had a spot on this trip to hike the Grand Canyon! What a thrill.

I most looked forward to meeting coworkers for the first time and getting to share this experience with them.  Donan has about 25 offices spread throughout the midwest, so needless to say, I do not know everyone. Spending three days with 11 other Donan employees would create bonds and camaraderie.

The plan was to hike into the canyon via the South Kaibab Trail, stay the night at Phantom Ranch and then hike out of the canyon the next day via Bright Angel Trail. I would then extend the trip and drive to Colorado to hike my third 14er, and my first solo 14er, San Luis Peak in the San Juan Mountains.

The Valley:

Our descent started at 6:30 a.m. at about 7,200 feet on the South Kaibab trailhead, about 7 miles and 4,654 feet above Phantom Ranch. The trail is full of switchbacks and amazing views.

Down and back and forth we go
Still smiling on the way down and taking in God’s glorious creation
Our fearless and experienced leader, Rob
First view of the Colorado River

I realized just how big the Grand Canyon is when it took 3 miles, and a descent of 2,040 feet, before the Colorado River was first spotted.

Where’s Alex?

We had a triathlete amongst us. He decided to run part of the trail. Can you find him in the above photo? I promise he is there. Look way down the trail.

Kaibab Suspension Bridge

We were getting close to Phantom Ranch when we crossed the Kaibab Suspension Bridge over the Colorado River. Phantom Ranch is only about a mile away from the bridge with a sizzling hot afternoon for us. In the sun, a thermometer read 139 degrees! If I remember correctly the thermometer read 115ish in the shade. We spent the afternoon sitting in a creek, in the shade, watching the canyon wildlife. It was a perfect way to pass the time on an otherwise insanely hot afternoon.  This dip in the creek also served as our showers due to a pipe break the day before we reached Phantom Ranch, resulting in limited water usage.

Lots of prickly pear cacti
Canyon at dusk
Home for the night

I spent the night in a bunk house with other ladies.  Pretty nice accommodations for where we were.

The following morning we got started a bit earlier, around 5:30, in order to hike the 10 miles out of the canyon. We crossed the Colorado River immediately and then walked on sand, like a beach, for a ways before heading up up up.

Silver Bridge with Kaibab Suspension Bridge in the background
The beach in the canyon!

One of the pleasant surprises of the Bright Angel Trail is that we were shaded for a huge part of the hike. It was such a blessing. Another pleasant surprise was that we hiked along a stream for miles. The gurgling stream added a nice touch to the challenging hike.

Got to get power down there somehow
Mule train

Mules travel the Bright Angel Trail and we encountered a couple mule trains. Those guys work hard to take supplies down to Phantom Ranch and bring out mail and garbage. Thank you mules for the delicious dinner last night.

Waiting at the top for the rest of the group

As members of our group finished, we gathered at the top to greet others as they finished. It was such a high to make it out of the canyon and have others to celebrate with. Overall, the hike was not quite as hard as I imagined, but way more beautiful. Something I will never forget. The shared experience allows for a unique bond with coworkers that is so cherished.

Mountain:

This next stage of the trip I experienced alone. I drove to Creede, CO to camp the night. Let’s just say God was present during this part of the trip, assisting and guiding me.

A little bit of home in Creede
The sky out west is just indescribable
The trailhead is up a gorge past old mines

I camped as close to the trialhead as my little rental car could get me, when I actually found it. It was a chilly night and I started the hike with all the cool weather clothes I had with me, including socks on my hands as make-shift gloves! I was not alone on the trail. I encountered several hikers at opportune times and had a blast watching San Luis get closer and closer, all the while soaking up the scenery of the mountains, ridges, basins and patches of trees.

Socks make good gloves when needed
Trail around the basin
The tough part

After enjoying most of the hike, I got up to the saddle and things turned vertical and tough. The Grand Canyon hike did not prepare me for straight up at 13,000+ feet. I was sucking wind, briefly wondered why I like conquering mountains so much, then I made it to the top and I remembered – the views and sense of accomplishment!

#3 San Luis Peak 14, 014 feet
What a pretty 14er - San Luis Peak

A large portion of the trail to San Luis Peak ran along the Colorado Trail (CT), which starts in Denver and ends in Durango, 483 miles away. Apparently, it is a popular trail to hike in the summer months. I ran into several conversation starved hikers on their way to Durango from Denver. I think I had a conversation with every hiker I encountered.

Me and San Luis Peak

As a matter of fact, the gentleman who snapped this shot of me was hiking the CT. He is from Nashville, TN. So us easterners hiked together for a while.

Mountain flowers are beautiful

I took more time on the way back down to look at flowers and try to see wildlife. I knew I wanted to ascend the peak as early as possible to avoid any weather hazards. The day turned out perfect for hiking and so the hike back down was quite enjoyable. There is so much variety in the mountain flowers. As far as wildlife goes, I saw so many pikas, no marmots though. I ended at the rental car 7.5 hours and 13 miles after I started, with tired legs and a huge sense of accomplishment.

Made it!

Another Houdini dog

You might remember a post about Cheddar the Houdini dog. You may also remember that Pablo seems to have some Houdini abilities on occasion. Most recently, Pablo went to bed with a collar around his neck. In the morning, he did not have a collar on. Searching the house up and down, in all of Pablo’s favorite spots, did not yield the collar. I figure he must want to go shopping for something more stylish!

PRK Experience

This is my dairy, you might say, of my experience with PRK. Mostly to help me remember when I am asked by someone considering the procedure and to know what is next when I get my second eye done.

First was the consultation, where I saw more eye machines than I thought existed. It took a solid 3 hours to be evaluated and counseled. I experienced my first dilated eyes here. It is crazy how wide the pupils go!

I scheduled surgery for a Thursday in March, the beginning of March Madness. I planned to walk out of surgery looking like a pirate and watch the first round of basketball one eyed. It didn’t quite go down as I had planned, but more on that later. The only pre-surgery instruction was not to wear my contacts three days prior.

The details of the surgery can be found and watched online, I won’t get into the specifics here, but will tell you what I felt and thought through the process.

The aspect I was most nervous about was smelling my eye burning during the laser work. Jeff, my brother, had LASIK done and told me details of his experience and the only part that made my stomach turn was the burning smell. How would I manage? With Valium! I got my first dose of those relaxing pills prior to surgery. Standard procedure from what I could tell. After about 15 to 20 minutes for the pills to take effect and pulling my hair back in a hair net, I was called into the surgery room.

For the next paragraph my words and thoughts will be in red while what is happening around me is in black:

The doctor introduced himself. Nice to meet you too, although I can’t really see you. I don’t have my contacts in remember? He asked what I did for a living. “I am an engineer.” “What kind?” asked the doctor. “A structural engineer.” He then began to tell me about a house he recently built in Montana, as the assistants were guiding me to the bench to lay on, making sure I was properly placed on the bench, gave me a long stuffed animal fish and told me to push the head of the fish up under my chin to keep my head back and hug the body – a stuffed fish, wonder how they settled on a stuffed fish – numbed and securely opened my eye – this is not as bad as I had heard, it is weird not to blink though – all in what felt like 30 seconds. I want to hear more about the house. I asked the doctor something about the house. The lights in the room were turned off and I remember practicing looking at a green light and a red light. My eye always seemed to be getting some sort of drops or solution in it. I remember squeezing the fish tight. The assistants would count out the number of drops or seconds a solution was in my eye as the doctor talked about that Montana house. I remember the cornea cut – oh, I just saw the cut and the removal, cool. I then remember looking at the red and green lights again – oh wait, that is smoke, wow, we are to this point already, oh, I smell burning. I remember letting out a deep breath and the laser portion was over before I really recognized what was happening. I was told I did well, whatever that meant. Then more solutions in the eye. I squeezed the fish again and let out a deep breath again. Boy, that light is bright, I want to blink. Oh, all I want to do is blink. Hurry up with the solutions, the lights are way too bright. The slowest part for me was the cleansing afterward. I was ready to be done. After my eye was thoroughly rinsed, a clear contact was placed on my eye as a band-aid while my cornea grew back. The process was finished and when I could blink again, I sat up and looked at the doctor. Ooooh, you are clear. “I can see you.” “Yes,” says the doctor, “but don’t test your eye today, go home and take a nap.” He told me other things that I honestly can’t quite remember, I was too excited that I could see already. The whole thing took about 10 minutes according to Peter. Amazing. I was then taken to another room to get instructions on eye drops and restrictions.

The eye drop schedule was explained to us. It was so much information and I thought how crazy fast the lady was explaining things. She assured us it was all laid out on this one piece of paper. Thankfully it was – one set of drops when I wake up and when I go to bed, another set of drops every 4 hours with an additional set 3 minutes after the first, pain pills every four hours for the first day and then as needed, but no more than the maximum stated on the bottle. Seriously, what person with Valium in their system can comprehend all of that? I was given these awesome bug goggles to wear the rest of the day and then at night. Keep my eyes closed, both of them, for the rest of the day, take a nap or naps. I am so thankful for my ability to nap. It came in quite handy.

Bug goggles.

I took all the drops and pills on schedule the first day and felt no pain or discomfort. When I wasn’t napping, I was listening to March Madness on sports radio. Not a bad way to take in the games.

I did not drive on Friday, or spend much time on any one thing. I did not wear the goggles, put lots of drops in, took half the pain medication and got my first glimpse of really great sight. Although I was told this would only last a couple days and then my vision would tank as the cornea grew back. I did not have much discomfort Friday. I wondered why people didn’t have both eyes done at once, so far this seemed like a breeze.

Saturday was more eye drops. On my restrictions list, it said I could shower today, so I did, trying not to get water or soap in my eye. I took a pain pill in the evening when my eyes started to feel quite scratchy. Sunday I experienced the tank of my vision. Things got really cloudy and blurry and I began to realize why one eye was done at once. Again, my eye started to feel scratchy at the end of the day.

Monday was my follow-up appointment. My cornea was still growing back, so the clear contact remained in. My vision was tested and I think I was at 20/50, but a really cloudy 20/50. With the contact and amount of drops in my eye, things were definitely clouded up. The scratchiness stopped about Tuesday night. I figured it meant my cornea was doing its thing healing.

The rest of the week consisted of drops by the schedule and having a blurry, cloudy spot in the middle of my vision. I went back to the doctor on Friday, one week and a day after surgery. Apparently my cornea was so close to completely healing over, just a pinhole was still open. The clear contact was removed though. It felt like an eye lash was in my eye, but I was determined to keep the band-aid off. Friday was a bit uncomfortable, like I said, kind of felt like an eye lash was in my eye when I looked and blinked a certain way. My eye was quite watery too. By Saturday, my eye was feeling much better, and even better on Sunday. I kept at the drop schedule until Sunday, one week and three days after surgery, and then cut back to only one drop four times a day. By Sunday, I noticed improvement in my vision. It was not clear, but I can see improvement. And the “eye lash” feeling was gone. I have noticed a sensitivity to light. After the clear contact was taken off, I feel like I am more sensitive than before. I also have an odd sensation like my eye is bulging. That is the best way for me to describe it. I feel like when I blink or look a certain way my eye feels big. Maybe swollen? I have no idea. I do know it feels different from my other eye. Not uncomfortable, but different.

Here I am one week and five days after surgery and hoping for an end goal of 20/15!